Confused. Scared.

It's scary how the internet can tell you about a person more than they can tell you.
I found out a lot about a person that I shouldn't have. Right now I am just shocked and.. I don't know. I think I am scared of that person. Is this person trying to hide who they really are? Am I just a person who you are too embarrassed to show your friends and family? Do you not trust me? Am I even important to you or am I just another girl?
You asked me, when did I realize that I love you? At that moment, I couldn't answer that. To be honest, I don't even know the answer myself. There is so much about you that I don't even know about. I can't truly love you because of that. I wish I can explain how this makes me feel. This relationship is like walking with my eyes closed and deep inside I know that I am walking towards a cliff but I'm hoping that I'm wrong.
Am I just fooling myself into thinking that there's nothing wrong? or am I just scared of finding out the truth?
Truth hurts.
I hate how I am so gullible. Everything he says, I believe. Even if there are obvious proofs, he will find a way to make it look like nothing is wrong. I guess it's my insecurity that is keeping me from accepting the truth.
For now I'm just going to distance myself from him and try to see the bigger picture without the filters...

What Would You Rather Suffer From...

what would you rather suffer from: thinking too much or doing too much?
I came to this question while writing my essay for my history class (should be finishing it now but I'm too distracted by my question)

Wow this question was written a long time ago when I was still in college and now I have graduated.
I want to answer this now since I don't have anything to do and it is an interesting question.

First of all, I would like to explain what I mean by thinking too much and doing too much. What I mean is that one is more on the mental aspect and the other one is more on the physical aspect.

I believe that I would rather suffer from doing too much than to suffer from thinking too much. Every time I think too much, I would get a headache and my mind just shuts down so I wouldn't be able to do anything.