Confused. Scared.

It's scary how the internet can tell you about a person more than they can tell you.
I found out a lot about a person that I shouldn't have. Right now I am just shocked and.. I don't know. I think I am scared of that person. Is this person trying to hide who they really are? Am I just a person who you are too embarrassed to show your friends and family? Do you not trust me? Am I even important to you or am I just another girl?
You asked me, when did I realize that I love you? At that moment, I couldn't answer that. To be honest, I don't even know the answer myself. There is so much about you that I don't even know about. I can't truly love you because of that. I wish I can explain how this makes me feel. This relationship is like walking with my eyes closed and deep inside I know that I am walking towards a cliff but I'm hoping that I'm wrong.
Am I just fooling myself into thinking that there's nothing wrong? or am I just scared of finding out the truth?
Truth hurts.
I hate how I am so gullible. Everything he says, I believe. Even if there are obvious proofs, he will find a way to make it look like nothing is wrong. I guess it's my insecurity that is keeping me from accepting the truth.
For now I'm just going to distance myself from him and try to see the bigger picture without the filters...